Q: It’s so difficult to let go of expectations. I am always waiting for a shift, a change, and because of this, I am always thinking that I am doing something wrong or that I am not really understanding what you are saying.

A: Let’s dig a bit deeper with expectations, in general.
You are waiting for something to happen. You are waiting that sometimes in the future you will be able gain more clarity, more understanding, or whatever.
But awaking is not something to wait for to happen in the future.
It’s not in the future.
It’s here now.
It’s ALREADY here, waiting for you to NOTICE.
Here now is the only place and time to look and notice.
You are trying to judge it by some expectations, based on how you imagine how it would feel like or be like.
So in essence, you are waiting for the by-products you expect to happen.
So you are not noticing what is here now, rather you are seeking to find those by-products.
But realization isn’t recognized by its by-products.
The realization is self-evident, no by-product is needed.
If you are looking for the by-products, then you are just simply searching for by-products.
Realization is no equal to its possible by-products.
Those could only be by-products, but not IT.
Realization is the simple noticing of what IS, here-and-now, in this very moment.
Moment by moment. That’s all.
It’s very simple.
So when you look here-now, what do you notice?
What IS right now?